| i think...no. i'm so tired. |
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| so yeah i don't really come here anymore because i'm a myspace junky now. |
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| i can't handle liking people. it's just too much sometimes. |
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| familiar surroundings and circumstances. you tell me that you'll support me no matter what i decide, but you are nothing more than a liar. you are just like all of the rest. you only believe in me when i force you to look in my eyes directly. because you would never say the things that you truly believe about me to my face. you fear that i may be too fragile to take that such abuse. so you lie to me, dance around me. my body wanders from place to place. i work and i take up space in this living environment that i am wasting away in, but i no longer exist. i never actually leave my bed when i get up to start my day. cold all the time. missing so much affection so much love. hugs that i will never receive, laughter that sounds only like tears. i'm all over now. |
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| Living in all of these pictures. These pieces of paper that last so much longer than the two of us. I stare through them dissect them and break them apart bit by bit looking for your flaws. I stare into your eyes in these old photos looking for the deception that i never saw yet was always there staring back at me. I never find it. Never see anything but the best in you. Fall back into your milky white skin and your innocent smile. I will never expose your secrets. The noises that you made with me on top of you or the way that you fought to keep me inside of you. I will never let them know all of the ways that you loved me. The positions or the amount of time that you allowed me to possess you. I will never tell.
5:17 AM |
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